Wouldn't It Be Nice...

... to receive good news on the project I have been working on soon?

... to start the quest in enabling people to change life for the better?

... to have the contract signed and sealed as a birthday present to myself?

Now, that would truly be a meaningful 2010!

Health in my Body

Peace in my Heart

Wealth in my Life

Joy in my Home

Give Hope. Change Life.

Faith

I have done my utter best

The rest is beyond me

I trust my business associate

In giving better than the rest

Now I wait with faith in me

That I could change my life

and make a difference in other's too

Life In Moderations

If what I am feeling is it, I should be able to walk without pain and discomfort soon!

The last months, I have been having moments where I thought I was getting better, except it didn't last.

Hope this time, This Is It!

I will be able to do things I have taken for granted and longing to do the last 6 months.

However, there will be changes:

I will live life in moderations

I will have a more balanced life

I will lead a healthier life

I will spend quality time with family and friends

I will revisit places with fond memories

I will explore new places with family and loved ones

Most important of all, I would love to make positive changes to people's lives in ways and means I am capable of.

I thank God for putting me through this journey of self discovery.

Can't wait for my new journey to start!

I will never be perfect, but I will learn to be better each day.

How Do You Measure Success?

Was watching this movie in the afternoon. By the time I switched to this movie, it has probably started half way.

However, the moment I saw it, I knew I have seen it some time before. In fact, it was a very long time ago...

Funny how the mind works. I started to remember the interior of the house, the theme (which is bare minimalism), colour scheme, the sand-blasted main glass door, the Porche 911 that's parked outside, coming back to an empty home... (this was the beginning I missed but remember vividly).

What I recalled all those years back was how cool I thought the character was. Successful, independent, living in a contemporary house with a 2 door sports car.

I wanted to be like him!

Well, plus the fact that he's Bruce Willis! My favourite star since Moonlighting TV series.

What I have missed out then that I picked up this time round are things I never thought at that point in time would matter to me.

It made me realised what an arrogant bastard I have been.

Blinded by greed and desire. Thought I could do no wrong, could control anything and everything, at any given day and time.

Money, position, perks, recognitions were how I measured my success.

I truly thought I was successful!

The part that I watched before but did not relate to the last time came pounding on me hard this time round:

It's about opening up instead of keeping it all in.

The past is history we can't change.

The future is how we want it to be.

The present matters as it shapes our future.

Most important of all, success comes from the heart!

This year has been rather challenging for me with my health. It was a life changing experience for me as I finally comprehend the fundamentals of life.

This movie just reinforced to me the true meaning of success.

My definition of success:

Being able to make positive changes to people's lives through my believe, my work, my life.

Life Live. Transcend Life.

What If...

I have mentioned about how important health is in my previous posts.

Even though health is what's important to me, but I guess deep down I am still unsure of the importance despite the fact I said it is.

I believe I have just found the true importance of health moments ago.

I've been having a very bad gout attack the last 3 days.

This time, I had it on my right knee. The one I heavily bruised and hospitalized for 21 days almost 12 years ago.

This time the attack is bad. My knee swells up like a small melon.

I freaked out when I first saw it as the swelling is unusual (reminded me of the incident 12 years ago) except this time no injury!

But other then the initial shock, I have no time to be worried as the throbbing pain was so bad I either couldn't sleep or I woke up due to the excrutiating pain.

Every waking moment was a struggle trying not to think about the pain!

It got better late this morning, after several doses of colchicine, diclofenac, topical and oral esterified fatty acid (EFA) since last night.

I still couldn't straighten my leg but the pain is bearable. I can't walk normal as one leg is now shorter than the other.

As I was limping in pain out of the bedroom, I could see things clearly!

I started asking myself these questions:

What if the pain is gone but I no longer be able to walk normal as my leg couldn't straighten?

What if I continue to have gout attack as bad as this and I can't walk half the time?

These lead me to the brutal truth that:

I will no longer be able to walk hand in hand with my wife.

I will not be able to lead an active life.

I will not be able to drive the sportscars I plan to get myself over the next few years.

I will not be able to drive!

I will not be able to carry out daily chores and activities!

I am thankful I get to finally see things clearly!

I want my health back and I will pray for a healthy body before other things.

I thank God for showing me the true meaning of a healthy life.

Normal left knee

Swollen right knee

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Health

Just finished movie not too long ago.

2 things I noticed:

1. I could get up from the seat with minimal discomfort from my knees, no stiffness on my lower legs and without pain at the bottom of my feet.

2. I could walk down the stairs with no pain on my ankles and bottom of feet, despite some stiffness on my knees.

It's an amazing feeling!

I have been in constant discomfort, stiffness and pain for months. This came as a pleasant surprise.

It's a relief!

It's a great feeling to know that my health is improving even though it's not as swift and direct as I have originally anticipated.

Having a pain-free life is part of leading a wealthy life.

Never once could I imagine my health would deteriorate to this extend.

Don't ever take health for granted, appreciate every little movement we are capable of making.

Painless life. Dignified life.

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Can You Tell The Difference?

Pre uncleBotak

Approximately 1 week before TB attack

I was at 75kg (eventually dropped to 73kg)

Post uncleBotak

This was taken about a month ago

(2 months after cleared of TB virus) at 81kg

My latest

Guess I did put on weight!

But if it's the sign of recovering from TB, that's fine.

Just wish I can be healthy and yet still be at 75kg. That's when I realised I have a flat stomach!

A rare sight! Have not seen that for 20 odd years!!!

Can't wait til my side effect of TB is gone to start a healthy lifestyle with time for tennis, running and yoga!